“Mom, what will you do now?”
“Hmmm. I have no idea. I feel heartbroken – like I’m voluntarily amputating my right leg. This business has been part of my identity for fifteen years – I’m scared of what it will mean for me to be without it.”
“Well… can I have the TV in my room?”
Kids have a way of putting life’s challenges into perspective, don’t they?
This business that I’ve nurtured, moved, and grown is not meeting the numbers I need it to, so I’ve closed. It hurts. The hardest part is saying out loud, “This isn’t working.” I know failure is how we get to success. And, I did some amazing things, met some incredible people, and learned so much about photography, entrepreneurialship, and myself.
I’ve been crying for a month and a half. I have all the feels – sad, angry, anticipating, excited, and… I’m kind of bitter. I know it’s wrong, but it’s also true. And, if you know anything about me, you know I give you the straight up truth.
In the grand scheme of world events, my business is small and insignificant. But to me it was (almost) everything. So, grant me some grace in the next couple of months – let me be a little sad and withdrawn. I promise, I’ll bounce back.
As for what I’ll do next? Stay tuned…
P.S. The TV will NOT be going into her room.